You are an ESTJ, meaning, you are strong willed, and have tons of determination to go around. You're like a super-human! Almost, because like all of us, you still have flaws. You prefer things to be in order and you beleive "honesty is the best policy". That being said, when there is change, you become uncomfortable and stressed, which shows like an addict without their obsession. There are times where your stubborness gets the best of you, and you worry so much about where your at in the food chain.
Things an would enjoy/relate to:
Books; All Quiet on the Western Front-Erich M. Remarque, Atlas Shrugged-Ayn Rand, Syrup-Max Barry
Movies; Kill Bill, House of Cards
Activities; Volunteering, Gardening, Organizing library books
Characters; Dwight Schrute (The Office), Leela (Futurama), Waitress (Always Sunny in Philidelphia)
Thought Serial Killer/Criminal; John Wayne Gacy, Genene Jones, Josef Fritzl (an Austrian man who kept his daughter locked in an underground bunker for over twenty years, along with the five children that he impregnated her with during her captivity)
Stress
We all get stressed, don't sweat it dude, okay? Alright, so that sentence helps about as much as "Calm down!" does. Which in your case, is not at all. Allow yourself to escape the moment and slowly tackle whatever the problem is. If it helps, chat with someone as you do, just talk it out-break it down. Understand whats happening and why. Don't feel like you need to be feeling a certain way, just be you. Whatever comes natural.